Too many ways to spell Discouragement?

I'm struggling.  I am fighting the urge to indulge is something sinfully sweet, chocolate, and full of empty calories.  But, it's not because I really want it, I guess it's because I need some comfort.  Day in and day out, I follow my diet to the letter.  I haven't cheated on this diet, not even a smidge since day one.  I keep a food journal, take my vitamins, calcium and probiotic faithfully, every single day, and the scales won't budge.  In fact, the scales say that I have gained one pound this week.  I'd like to shake my finger in the face of my surgeon who avowed that this Thyroidectomy wouldn't cause me to gain weight.  For the most part, I haven't gained any weight, but I can't seem to lose any more weight either.  Very, very discouraged. 


I am so very thankful that I was able to lose a good deal of weight before having the thyroid surgery.  It's the only thing that is keeping me going now.  I've got to be strong, and trust that the weight will start coming off again as my thyroid medication is increased.  My clothes are still baggy as can be.  I don't know if it is my wishful thinking, or if anyone else can see it, but it seems that my clothes continue to get bigger and bigger on me, as though I'm still losing weight, but the scales just aren't showing it.  I just knew that I would see a loss this week.  Instead, it is a 1 pound gain!?!  I just don't understand how it is possible. 


I go back to the weight loss center in about a week and a half.  I know they understand that I'm going through a valley right now, but this will be the first time since I've been going that I will not have a significant monthly weight loss.  It's just so stinkin' unfair!  And it will be my 6th appointment, which means that my case is very close to being turned over for insurance approval.  I wanted so badly to have 80 pounds off before a surgery date.  I suppose that could still happen, if my medication will allow it, as I'll have to delay a surgery date until my hormone levels have stabilized and my body has recovered from radiation.  Dental work is going to factor in some further delays, too.  

I must keep on keepin' on and pray for God's will.  I'm glad my Lord's walking through this valley with me!  He may have to carry me soon.......

Meet My Beautiful Family!

Sitting on floor:  Brandon, Brenna, James;  Standing: Jeremy, Tabi, Pam, Gary, Wanda, Darin, Andy;  Seated: Daddy and Mama

Thank you Lord, for my amazing little family!  We have extended family scattered all over the United States, but for immediate family, this is our little family unit!  I love them so very much!