Well, I heard from the surgeon's office today. The nurse said that he would like to have me come in and discuss the findings and decide what to do next. Ok, obviously something showed up, and the nurse couldn't tell me over the phone exactly what it was, just that they want to keep a very close watch on me, since my mother had thyroid cancer last summer. I have an appointment 2 weeks from today, giving me 14 more days to worry that something is going to interrupt my progress towards gastric bypass surgery. My worry up until now, was that I would get right up to the last few weeks before approval, and my insurance would suddenly decide that they are no longer going to pay for the procedure, knocking me out of getting it. Now I'm going to be worrying that another health issue will be the culprit instead.
I didn't see this coming. I had actually forgotten that I needed a follow up ultrasound. My numbers were good (thyroid) so I didn't have my guard up in anticipation of something to show up again. I really don't want to sound like a whiner, but if you were in my shoes you could understand better. I've been obese nearly all my life. I lost weight in '94-'95, 200 pounds to be exact, so I know what it was like to be slim for 3 1/2 years, before I started gaining it back. I made some miserable mistakes, and the consequences of those mistakes have certainly kept me humble, and unable to stay on a proper, healthy eating plan and exercise. I'm doing so good, now, and I just can't stand the thought of being derailed.
"Learning to lean. Learning to lean. I'm learning to lean on Jesus. Finding more power than I ever dreamed, I'm learning to lean on Jesus."
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