Day 56

Here I am at day 56, and I have lost a total of 42 pounds!  I am well pleased! 

I attended the mandatory seminar last evening.  It was definitely informative, however, I don't recall anything being mentioned that I didn't already know from all of my research and chronic YouTube video views! But, it is one more thing to cross off the lists of 'must dos' and still there are several more.  I did find out last night that there may in fact be more 'must dos' before the surgery can be scheduled.  I thought I may breeze by without having to see a cardiologist, but it turns out that it probably will be recommended.  It's OK, I suppose, I guess I just wanted to hurry up and be post-op!

Tomorrow is my thyroid surgery.  I am getting so scared.  I feel like my 'insides' are jello, as if I am trembling.  All I really want to do today is cry, but I have so many things to do, I don't have time to cry.  I have to get Mama and Daddy's groceries, and I want to get to Kroger and get some Greek yogurt. A good friend at church told me about it, so I thought it may be good to have it one hand after surgery so that I can get more protein, if I have difficulty eating.  I probably wouldn't be stressing so much, but I know what my Mama went through.  Mama was in agony with pain in her neck.  It was necessary to hyper-extend her neck during surgery, in order to gain access to the masses.  Like my Mama, I have a terrible neck!  I've had 2 whiplashes, and there is narrowing of the cervical spine that will one day have to be addressed surgically.  I really dread what this hyper-extension is going to do to me.  Dear Lord, please hold my hand through this and protect me and comfort me......